Dear Readers, it’s finally Friday! What are y’all doing this weekend?! I want to hear all about it! Dear Self, today is a day to relax and calm down. You got really emotional yesterday, so take today to be in the word, be honest with people that you’re struggling, and let God calm your heart. Dear Alyssa, I loved getting to see you this week! As much as I love you I am thankful for the time we’ve spent apart, especially since we will be sharing a room with one other person this semester. Dear Mom, I cannot WAIT to see you in less than a week! I’m sad that I’ll only get to spend a couple of weeks with you, but we’re going to have a blast!
Dear Readers, I’m learning that we all go through phases in our lives. One phase that I recently went through was a lack of motivation. This past semester was a huge struggle for me mentally, emotionally, physically, and spiritually. I was lacking in motivation to do anything, to strive to do more than average. I felt worn out and simply wanted to stay in bed all day and sleep. And then I went through a huge struggle this past month and my eyes were opened to the fact that I was tearing myself apart. I was doing nothing good for myself and was being trapped by Satan’s lies. But God has been pulling at my heart to come back to Him, to lean on Him instead of running to other escapes. And now, I feel my motivation coming back. I feel motivated to exercise again, to get a head start on my summer classes and even my classes for the fall. I feel a desire to pray and read my bible again! Which is a wonderful feeling! I really just wanted to share with y’all how things are beginning to get better around here! Dear Alyssa, I miss you terribly and I hope I can make the drive down there again soon! Dear Hannah, I’ve really loved our talks the past couple of days and I’m really glad you’re back home again. I missed you, even though you were only gone for two weeks.
Dear Readers, today my stress levels will be put to the test. I have about 2.5 hours to move out of my room and into the room upstairs, which the previous roommates have not completely moved out of yet, because a new girl is moving into mine and Alyssa’s room sometime today. I have 2.5 hours because I have work at 12. Today is a test I do believe. Dear New Girls, I’m so so so sorry that the house is a mess. BUT the kitchen looks great! Dear Self, Keep Calm and Move On. (See what I did there? haha) Dear Alyssa, between the two of us we have WAY too many clothes. I’m so overwhelmed right now.
Oh and did I mention that I have moved every year for the past four years? I’m ready to keep a room for longer than a year. At least I’m staying in the same house this time, ha!
Dear Readers, life has thrown me a few curve balls in the last few weeks. Between school ending, starting a second job, getting ready for summer classes, and trying to maintain some semblance of a normal life, I have been losing my mind. Lets be real for a moment here and talk about how difficult it is to navigate life sometimes. Just when you think you’ve got everything all figured out you trip, fall, and suddenly find yourself at the bottom of a massive pit. And all you can think is “how did I get all the way down here?” You know what you need to do to get back up, but you’re having the hardest time of it and you just feel so lost and helpless. That is just a tidbit into my life. I’m terribly sorry for being a Debbie Downer, but I just needed to be honest for a moment. On the up side: I am successfully balancing two jobs and will begin my summer class on Monday, and I do think that this summer is going to be awesome!
Dear Body, you’ve been great the past couple of nights at the gym. I really didn’t think you’d be able to run for as long as you did that first night. I’m proud of you. Dear Contacts, I really need you to last me for at least two more weekends. I’m about to go on a road trip where we will be driving at night there and back. I need y’all to do your job and stop letting my eyes go blurry. I’d like my roommates and I to make it there and back safely. Dear Sena, I love having you as not only my boss, but as a friend and mentor. I’m so thankful for you. Dear Roommates, I am really praying that everything works out for this next year. Things have been crazy and hectic, but I know God will work everything out according to His will. It’s amazing that He cares about every single thing in our lives. Dear Texas Weather, it’d be really cool if you could warm back up. I would really like to be able to sit on my front porch again without being bitten by freezing cold wind. Thanks!
I hit the ground running this morning. It was such a long day. Nothing really stressed me out, I was just going non-stop with my kids I tutor and then at home, and again at work, until I finally got off at five. I don’t want to complain, so instead I’m going to take some time to be thankful for all I have.
Dear God, thank You for putting me in a class where I will develop skills that are really going to help me in my future career as a teacher. Thank You for a car that runs fairly well. Thank You for providing money so that I could go grocery shopping before work. Thank You for running water so I could do laundry and have clean clothes for work. Thank You for job that pays the bills and that I love going to. Thank You for the “hold” button on the work phones and for granting me patience with people on the phone. Thank You for coworkers who encourage me to grow and pursue You. Thank You for money to get my rent paid each month and for a roof over my head in general. Thank You for ovens and how simple they are to work. Thank You for roommates who like to take study breaks by throwing a football and friendly neighbors who will come chat with you just because they can. Thank you for electricity so we can stay up late at night and not get enough sleep. Thank You for Your love and grace that is renewed in my life every single day.
Dear Readers, let me first start off by saying that I am in shock at the number of likes my last post got. THANK Y’ALL. Y’all are awesome. Dear Dadjy, I loved spending the weekend with you! Just the two of us was nice. We haven’t had that since before you got married. I really liked it. Dear Big Brudder, thanks for teaching me how to shoot this weekend! Guess I’m gonna have to buy my own gun now. Dear Roommates, we are seriously stressing each other out right now. We need to take a step back and reevaluate this whole finding new roomies situation. I really hate stepping on y’alls toes or making anyone mad. Dear God, thank You for sending Your Son to die for us, for our sins. You are amazing. You defeated death, You rose again on the third day, You were and always will be victorious over the enemy!