For 18 days I have had the opportunity to come to Georgia and see my family. I’ve gotten to put aside work and school and really have nothing to worry about while I’m here. It has been such a sweet relief after the summer I’ve had. God has been teaching me more about who He is and that I simply need to abide in Him. “Be still and know that I am God” is a verse that has stuck out to me more than anything. To be still is to put away all the things that distract us from being in God’s presence; to stop thinking about all the things that need to be done today or tomorrow, and sit before Him. During this time I am normally repeating all the names of God, His characteristics, and the things He has revealed about Himself to me. To sit before God and remember who He is is such a sweet time of peace and calmness.
I know that it’s not quite Friday yet, but I thought the title was catchy. This week has been rough for several reasons. I am still in recovery from the breakup, and am realizing several emotional issues that I have. I actually had to step down at church and stop volunteering with the youth because I was doing more harm than good for them because I couldn’t make myself smile or interact with the students. I have been having a couple of little health problems, nothing major, just small things that are slowing me down a bit. I am in the beginning stages of starting a weeklong detox to clean out my body from all the unhealthy food I’ve been eating. And God has been revealing a lot of the state of my heart to me, and convicting me of several things that need to change. It hurts to be cleaned out by God, it’s a good pain because I know He is making me into the person He needs me to be, but it’s still difficult. The psalm that keeps coming to my mind is Psalm 51 which repeats the phrase “Create in me a clean heart, O God.” My heart is dirty and messed up, sometimes I let me tongue slip and things come out of my mouth that I don’t really mean. Or I get mad at one of my roommates because they didn’t clean up their dishes, and I let the anger eat away at me, over something so small. I’ve realized that I am a glutton when it comes to sweets, and I over-indulge on them, which isn’t healthy. I even realized that sometimes I will be thinking about having a cookie while I’m driving; my thoughts are trapped by it, and it’s a sin because it distracts me from God. All these little things piled together are honestly a little overwhelming for me to handle, and I think that its added to my stress a bit for this week.
In other news, we’re having an office party at a girl’s apartment tomorrow night after work and I made the delicious cookie oreo brownie cake thing again. You can see a picture of that here: https://iwillwritetoyou.wordpress.com/2013/01/28/sweet-sunday/
It was a hit at work and with all of our neighbors, half of it was gone the night we made it because people kept calling us and asking for some. So for a night we had a little delivery service and took it around to our friends houses. Quite fun actually.
Anyways, this post is just a humdrum of all my thoughts that are swirling through my head at the moment. I just need to go to bed, which is what is about to happen!