Every girl who grew up on Disney Princess movies has an idea in her mind of what Prince Charming would look like if he was brought to life. I’m not talking about just outward appearances (although its a plus for him to be cute), I’m talking about personality; the kinds of things he will do and say.
Prince Charming is the perfect man. For me, he is the typical talk, dark, and handsome man. He pursues and woos the girl he finds special. He stands up for her, takes risks for her, and is a hopeless romantic. He laughs easily and is always smiling. He takes charge and makes wise decisions. He’s perfect…in my mind, that is.
There’s no perfect guy out there just waiting to sweep me off my feet. I think that I have finally accepted that fact. There is no such thing as the perfect guy.
But there is Jesus who is the perfect Savior. His sacrifice is better than any love story Disney can come up with. His love for His precious daughters is greater than the love any earthly man can give.
I just pray to one day be blessed with a godly husband who knows that he isn’t perfect, but also knows that through Jesus he can be the man he was created to be.
Over the past couple of weeks I’ve been making some difficult decisions. One of those being whether or not I would stay at my church. I really wasn’t growing there anymore and felt drained when I left. I was also difficult to see Jacob each week and it wasn’t helping me to heal at all. I decided to leave and go back to my old church, which I am super happy and excited about. I’m also going to try to get my parents to go as well! That’s been the biggest thing.
Next to that I met someone and with God’s guidance was able to tell him that I am not in a place to be in a relationship right now. Let me tell you, being honest and up front like that is SO liberating. And that’s a big deal for me because I’ve always had a difficult time speaking up about what I’m thinking and what I know is right.
Another awesome thing that happened is that I got the chance to share my testimony with my girls Bible study I go to each week. It was a little crazy and overwhelming. Each week there have only been a handful of us there. BUT this week 15 girls decided to show up out of nowhere. I was in shock! I was expecting to share with girls that I had really been getting to know and building relationships with, and I got to share with them and a bunch of girls I had never even met before! The most humbling part of it was that almost every girl approached me afterward to say thank you for sharing. It’s really just amazing what God does every day.
In the midst of all of this I have been freaking out a little bit about getting ready for summer. I’ve got several travel plans that I want to save up for, a class I need to take, and will be working two jobs. It’s a lot to get my mind around. It just feels like so much to think about. I’m trying to get myself organized and I feel like I’m failing terribly at it. On the plus side, I did get all of my homework done for the night!
I made it through week one of the single life and I can already see God working on me. First thing, I have sooooo much peace. Life if crazy and hectic right now and I know that this is peace that can only come from the Lord. Secondly, I’ve had a better attitude about life in general. I can be a pretty big brat sometimes, and much of the time I whine and complain about different things (over complain), but through beginning to read 1 Peter (which is my favorite book of the Bible) I have been greatly reminded that God deserves praise for every little thing. From dying for my sins on the cross to waking me up this morning, from giving me this great job to giving me great roommates. Third, I learned how much was lacking in my own walk with Christ and some areas where I am spiritually immature; areas that need to be worked on before entering into a relationship with someone who is just as imperfect as I am.
All that to say, I am confident that God is going to do some big things in my life this year and that overall it’s going to be a good year!
Sometimes the hardest things to do in life are the things that we have to do the most. You are still one of my favorite people in the whole world and you are definitely my best friend. We had our ups and downs along the way to here, our good days and our bad days. I love you more than words can express and I always will. You taught me how to love again when I thought that I couldn’t. I will miss having you so close, but I know you’re only a phone call away.
Dear Texas, we get it, you were super thirsty and needed water. But come on, two days straight of this? We’re under flash flood warnings because of this. You’re going to have to pee so bad when this is all over with. Plus, I can’t drive anywhere because my tires suck. Thanks. Dear New Work Friends, y’all are awesome. I can already tell that this is going to be a great year! Dear Jacob, life is throwing you some awful curveballs right now. But you’re going to make it through. I know you will. Love you so much. Dear Friends of my Roommate, do not ever leave your yucky crumbled up beer can on my bathroom counter ever again. GERMS. This isn’t your house, please be a little more respectful. P.S. put the toilet seat down when you’re done; this is a house full of girls, not guys that don’t care.
Dear Readers, sorry for my absence and silence the past couple of days. Life just got a little bit crazier. I moved back into my house…which was a disaster. Someone keeps using my bathroom and leaving trash in there…such as beer cans. I am not pleased. BUT I started my new job this morning and absolutely loved it. It’s going to be awesome. Dear Jacob, happy one year anniversary to us! (yesterday..but whatever). I’m so blessed and thankful to have you. Thank you for being patient with me and sticking with me and my out of whack emotions. I seriously love you so much.
Dear Florida, it’s the middle of winter and you are just as hot and humid as ever. I guess some things never change. Dear Whoever Hacked My Facebook and Email, I do believe I know who you are. And I want you to know that you are childish and immature. It’s been 4 years, get over it already. Dear Jacob, you are so good to me. I am praying for you and the things I know you are struggling with. I’m praying for growth for both of us and our relationship in the years to come. I love you. Dear Car, lets not make me sick tomorrow, kay? Dear Destiny, I am soooo excited to see you tomorrow!! Distance cannot keep best friends apart!