For 18 days I have had the opportunity to come to Georgia and see my family. I’ve gotten to put aside work and school and really have nothing to worry about while I’m here. It has been such a sweet relief after the summer I’ve had. God has been teaching me more about who He is and that I simply need to abide in Him. “Be still and know that I am God” is a verse that has stuck out to me more than anything. To be still is to put away all the things that distract us from being in God’s presence; to stop thinking about all the things that need to be done today or tomorrow, and sit before Him. During this time I am normally repeating all the names of God, His characteristics, and the things He has revealed about Himself to me. To sit before God and remember who He is is such a sweet time of peace and calmness.
Over the past couple of weeks I’ve been making some difficult decisions. One of those being whether or not I would stay at my church. I really wasn’t growing there anymore and felt drained when I left. I was also difficult to see Jacob each week and it wasn’t helping me to heal at all. I decided to leave and go back to my old church, which I am super happy and excited about. I’m also going to try to get my parents to go as well! That’s been the biggest thing.
Next to that I met someone and with God’s guidance was able to tell him that I am not in a place to be in a relationship right now. Let me tell you, being honest and up front like that is SO liberating. And that’s a big deal for me because I’ve always had a difficult time speaking up about what I’m thinking and what I know is right.
Another awesome thing that happened is that I got the chance to share my testimony with my girls Bible study I go to each week. It was a little crazy and overwhelming. Each week there have only been a handful of us there. BUT this week 15 girls decided to show up out of nowhere. I was in shock! I was expecting to share with girls that I had really been getting to know and building relationships with, and I got to share with them and a bunch of girls I had never even met before! The most humbling part of it was that almost every girl approached me afterward to say thank you for sharing. It’s really just amazing what God does every day.
In the midst of all of this I have been freaking out a little bit about getting ready for summer. I’ve got several travel plans that I want to save up for, a class I need to take, and will be working two jobs. It’s a lot to get my mind around. It just feels like so much to think about. I’m trying to get myself organized and I feel like I’m failing terribly at it. On the plus side, I did get all of my homework done for the night!